As I sit here staring at this blank page I can't even think where to begin. I can't believe a year has passed us by now and I just can't fight back the tears.
From the second the doctor placed you in my arms my life changed forever. I became your mommy and you became my beautiful son. The love I have for you is the most indescribable love. I've lost countless hours of sleep, sacrificed my body, went through horrible pain, became completely selfless and dedicated all my time and energy to you and you are worth it all and more. Being your mom has changed me for the better. You have made me see life in a completely different way. Seeing the world through your eyes is the most amazing gift.
This year I have got to spend close to every second with you and I have your daddy to thank for that. I don't think he'll ever know how much that means to me or how grateful I truly am. Time is something you can never get back. These precious memories and moments with you are irreplaceable.
I promise to never forget how you felt sleeping on my chest for the first time or how you always search for my hand and hair for comfort. I'll never forget the first time you said "ma-ma" or how you light up when I walk into the room. I'll never forget how much you need me or how my presence and touch can make you feel completely safe. I'll never forget our nursing bond or all those nights I rocked and sang you to sleep. I'll never forget the way you look at me with those bright, blue eyes like I'm your world. I'll never forget the first time you flashed that gummy smile at me and made my heart explode. I'll never forget our daily routine or afternoon dance parties. I'll never forget how you always end up with food in your hair. I'll never forget how you say "bubba" or "ball ball" on repeat. I'll never forget any of these moments and I'll keep them in my heart for the rest of life.
I pray that you never forget the unconditional love that I have for you. Or how much I cherish every second of being your mama. This year has been nothing but complete joy for your dad and I. You have made our family feel so complete.
I'm so sad to say goodbye to this year with you but I'm so excited for your future. You will do amazing things in this life, I can feel it.
Thank you for this incredible year and for making me your mommy. You are my pride and joy, my heart, my soul. This has been the best year of my entire life because of you.
And as your favorite song/book goes- I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always and as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.
Happy FIRST Birthday my sweet boy Mommy and Daddy love you SO much!