The first 2 weeks... oh how you are SO unprepared for these 14 days. The first
two weeks are a whole lot of positives and negatives all at once. You're so
excited, yet so afraid. You're so prepared, yet so overwhelmed. You're so in love, yet feel so selfish. Those first two are more than you ever think you can handle, but I promise you, you will make it through because you're "MOM" for a reason.
I thought I would share with you a look into our first two weeks home and give
you a little visual! People can tell you a lot of things to try to "prepare" you
for new mommy hood, but let me tell you- until you experience it first hand, you have NO IDEA!
The exhaustion- this is an entirely new level of tired. Your body has just
physically went through pure HELL to deliver your sweet angel and right after
you instantly have a job to do. That new creation relies solely on YOU. You're
in charge of everything! Did I mention the first two weeks most baby's have
their days and nights mixed up? They're ready to party when you're ready to
crash. Oh the heaviness- I can't even describe the feeling of how heavy my eyes were. I literally think I could have slept anywhere, maybe even outside in the snow. I would literally think constantly about sleep. And when family comes to "relieve" you or "let" you take a nap. It's impossible. Your mind never leaves that baby.
Breastfeeding- when people say breastfeeding is a, "full time job" they're not lying. From the time that babe comes flying out, you are their meal ticket. Talk about pressure. With Liam being three weeks early and having to stay in the NICU we had to supplement until my milk came in. The disappointment I felt was so heartbreaking. I wanted to breastfeed exclusively and it just didn't work out
that way. But once it came in it was way harder than I ever imagined. The first
two weeks it's extremely painful. It hurt way more than I expected and my
nipples would bleed almost everyday. It's SO hard not to want to throw in the
towel and start formula. I literally remember sitting in tears from the pain and disappointment. But once you pump that 3 ounces or your baby goes two hours without acting hungry it's totally worth it!
Those hormones- Let me just say pregnancy hormones have NOTHING on postpartum hormones. To say they go out with a dramatic exit would be an understatement. I would literally look at my cat and start crying for no reason. If I made It through the day without crying 10 times it was a good day. I remember sobbing to Justin and him just telling me everything would be okay. You feel so happy but so depressed at the same time. You will think selfish thoughts and then feel
guilty for thinking them. I literally thought I was going to go insane if I had
to look at the 4 walls for another second. You feel SO alone no matter how much
help and support you have.
The bleeding- as if you don't already have enough to deal with right? I'm
talking your worst period times 10! I had no clue there would be that much.
We'll keep this one short and to the point. It sucks!
Last but not least,
The love- the love you feel for that tiny, new baby that drains the life out of
you is unreal. No one can prepare you for the love you will feel for your child.
The feeling is indescribable! You are their everything and they are yours. Their heart is your heart and their life is yours. You can stare at them for hours and never get tired of it. It's a feeling like nothing else.
The first two weeks with my baby were the hardest, most challenging yet most
rewarding weeks of my life. Mom life is hard work but it gets easier. My sweet,
little man is 8 weeks old already. It seems unreal! We are quickly settling in
to our own daily routine now and things run so much smoother! It's crazy how
fast they grow and how much you long for time to stand still. My advice to all
new and expecting moms is to soak it all in. Enjoy every single second! It will