Monday, December 17, 2012

My Heart Breaks...


I've been trying to find the words, the right words to say to explain my emotions, to explain that heart wrenching feeling I have deep inside. When I think about words I can only think pain, sorrow, anger, loss, tragic, heartbreaking, bitter, grief, shocked, confused, helpless... none in which are positive. 

When my dad called me Friday morning and told me the news my world literally stopped. I instantly began to burst into tears as soon as he said that horrific line, "18 children are dead." Everything stopped. I began to question why, who, how and.... WHY? Why sweet, precious children? Who could do such a sick and twisted, heinous crime? How could one man ruin and take the lives of so many? WHY....?

After all of my questions went unanswered I began to think. I thought about the parents who will never be able to hold their sweet babies in their arms again and say those three, precious words that we all take for granted. I thought about the Christmas presents under all those trees that will never be able to be opened. I thought about the teachers who became heroes that day when they decided to step up and save the lives of their children. I thought about the amount of grief the entire city of Newtown is feeling. I thought about the first responders having to witness that fatal crime scene first hand. I thought about every aspect, every feeling, every emotion. 

Not only did that one man ruin so many lives in Newtown but he also robbed the innocence from SO many children all over. Now parents have to fear their children getting on the bus every morning and kids have to worry about feeling safe at school. 

Our country is failing. We have let the Devil have the upper hand in this world. We have taken God out of everything. I feel like after this awful tragedy it's about time we stand up and let him back in. God is the only way that our hearts will heal, He is the only way that our fears will be extinguished and He is the only savior this world has. 

Psalms 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

God welcomed home 27 beautiful angels. May the families find peace until they're called up to meet with their loved ones again. 

Also, please remember to post this, and only this tomorrow: 

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18 comments:

  1. I feel EXACTLY the same way. God needs to be put first in ALL things.

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  2. So, so heartbreaking. This post was beautiful, Lauren.

    xo

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  3. I felt the same way, and thought about all the circumstances as you did. I am still in shock. God have mercy and help us! It definitely makes me want to squeeze my nephews and nieces just a little tighter.

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  4. You're exactly right we have let the devil take the upper hand. It's so incredibly sad.

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  5. This is one of the most terrible tragedies our country has seen in a situation like this! I can't believe it! What we can do is educate our children to grow up to be respectable people who know how to handle themselves and their stresses!

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  6. I feel the exact same way. I can't wrap my head around why someone would do such an awful thing. I can even find the words to write my own post about this today. My thoughts and prayers go out to all of those families affected by this horrible tragedy.

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  7. AMEN. Let the devil in, bad things happen!

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  8. It's true, when I woke up and turned on the news I was in complete shock. To hear that all of these precious and innocent victims were taken so tragically in a space where they were learning, growing and thought they were safe. It's so devastating. May all of our continuous prayers reach out to those who were all affected! Thank you for sharing this.
    xo TJ

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  9. It is such an awful thing that has happened to those innocent babies and the ones that love them. I can't help but tear up anytime it is brought up. This morning I was about to complain to my husband about it being Monday morning, but quickly thought of those that would gladly take back a normal, safe Monday morning.

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  10. Our world really is falling apart and it's so heartbreaking to think about that and what happened. Praying so hard for all of them.

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  11. It's amazing to see how much our country has turned to God. You said it beautifully and that is exactly how I felt. It's comforting being able to turn to God's word in which even Jesus wept when Lazarus died; God understands our heartbreak and our pain.

    Have a great week!

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  12. This is so beauitiful, Lauren. Me being a future teacher...it really upset me. When I did my internship class in the Spring...I was with 1st graders for 4 months. You become attached to the students & even feel protective over them. I remember one day the other teachers & I saw a strange van parked outside of the school playground where our kids were. We alerted the principal & it turned out to be nothing. But I remember feeling angry that someone could easily sit out there and think about taking or harming our students.

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  13. I feel EXACTLY the same way. God needs to be put first in ALL things.

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  14. Great post. Brought tears to my eyes. This tragedy is horrible and I hate to think what it's going to take to open people's eyes. God is the only one that can heal our nation and He is always in control. I'm soooo glad I'm a Christian.

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